Lately I have been finding my life a tad overwhelming. When summer hit, I was pumped; Pumped to get stuff done. Pumped to do activities and crafts with the little ones. With two kids it did not seem like a lot to ask for. But I did not count the amount of family and friends that are included/involved in our lives. So we have had to make some adjustments to our schedules, plans, and lives.
So far, I have two kids and one husband. Also, We have three moms; one, (mine) who needs help with house renovations. One, (my husband’s) that really wants to spend time with all of us and hasn’t seen us a lot lately. And one (my husband’s) who is coming to visit, who doesn’t live around here. Then we have two dads (both my husband’s) but they come with two of the moms and aren’t very much to handle if at at all, they are great. Then, there is my one sister on my side, who has a husband and four kids. The kids whom which we could not live without. Who live a block away and are all very excited to hang out for the summer doing fun games and activities, etc. Mu husband has about six siblings all spread out but who all have big events coming and going all the time. At least two of them are getting married this summer. Then, I have one friend whom I haven’t been much friends with lately but who wants to start hanging out again. She has a son my son’s age and a daughter whom isn’t much younger then mine who love to hang out with our babies. Also my high school best friend is coming to town soon, bringing her two babies that I have yet to meet as well. There is also distant relatives that are coming to town soon, just not sure when, bringing along their own can of worms with them. Then my husbands and mine “couple friend” that want to see us again and finally visit more often. Even though they are in the same town as us, we have not seen them in over a year. With all of those people in our lives; With all of the everything going on. I am at a point of not being sure what to do next and how to schedule everything. It seems like it is just too much. But I know there is a way to handle it all.
In light of everything my sinuses/allergies have been acting up a lot the past couple of days. People say that when you get sick, it is your bodies way of telling you to slow down. Well I don’t have time for that ms body. I need to be well. People need me right now. People want to see us right now. People want to visit and be a part of our lives. There is no time to be sick.
“UGH!!”
There is only me who can do about 90% of everything going on right now. My house is not visitor ready, and not to sound horrible but I really would like it to be presentable before my In-Laws come to visit. Mainly because I am better then this mess, I just haven’t had much time. Call me silly but; I would like my house to be spotless or close to it before anyone sees it. Just because I say that I do not care what people think, does not mean there isn’t a part of me that wants people to think highly of me.
Within the month of summer starting, it seems that everything has hit the fan. In the midst of it all, I do not know how exactly I am suppose to feel. Emotions these days include being anxious, upset, overwhelmed, underappreciated, doubtful and just plain bummed. I have learned in the last couple of years how to manage these types of emotions, through different situations. Yet some days, like today, yet again I find it hard to be calm. To remember I am an over-comer. I CAN do this. The bible says, I can do ALL things through Christ who gives me strength. And since I have started to trust in the power behind that verse, the amount of testing on it is ridiculous. But it really does mean ALL things. When things get rough I just repeat it over and over again till the task at hand is completed because I CAN do this.
Unique Advice For Today: Pray; Through everything, and for everything. Read Of the promises that were made to us.
My Prayer for Today:
Dear Heavenly Father, today sucks. I am having a really hard time keeping my head up, and I do not understand why everything is stacking up the way that it is. I know that you have a greater plan for my life. Greater then I will ever know. But days like today it is hard to remember. I did look to your word, and I will remember your promises. You will never leave me nor forsake me. And my trust will forever be in you. I am sorry that today I feel lost, I am sorry that I feel alone sometimes. I plead the blood of Jesus over my body and the bodies of my whole entire family, and I rebuke the sickness from our lives. It has no hold on us!! By your strips we were healed! I also pray you bless and protect everyone in my family and everyone who reads this. I pray for your guidance. I pray for wisdom and understanding for all of the circumstances we are facing. I know that you know how I feel, so I give you all of my negative thoughts and emotions. Also I pray for the strength and energy that we so desperately need right now. We love you. Amen.
Jesus went through situations all of the time. There were thousands of people on a daily basis that needed him. People who wanted his attention, people who wanted to talk to him. People who needed healing and so on. There was always something going on for him during his life here on earth. There were people who were mad at him or hated him or both. People who did not understand how much he did for this world. Even nowadays, I am sure he feels pulled in about a thousand different directions. I know that Jesus understands where I am at today, because he lived it. He overcame this World; just so we could live forever. I do not know how he handled everything as graceful as he did without having some sort of mental breakdown. (Because he trusted in His Father) But that’s the point right? The point is to remember; He did it first so we could follow Him and do it successfully afterward? Maybe; Maybe that is the point. Maybe this life is hard for a reason. Maybe we are suppose to go through hard times to understand how to handle all of our everyday life. So I will get a grip now. I will put on my Armor of God that I so desperately need. I will walk the path that has been laid for me. And I will run this race that was set before me, praying constantly for the directions that I need to take.
Have a blessed week. I hope you find what you are looking for. Thanks for sticking with me through this one. It was a tough one.